Contemplation lost in Misery

The merciless assault assailed her senses as it always did when she was summoned. The sounds nearby drowned out into a dull mumble as the  sounds from her destination became a roar in her ears. The air before  her began to distort and flicker and new surroundings began to form in  the place of the old. Then came the sadness, She felt him, he who cared  for her, as he cried out in his soul, make a desperate last grab to hold  her to him as he always did, then he was gone, only the memory of his  melancholy expression as Lyvinnia was left to sit in the darkness of the  small wooden cupboard in her mothers chambers.

She didn't pray for her father to come and find her, Her mother had  spent every waking hour informing Lyvinnia that he didn't want her. He  wanted his other family. The only thing Lyvinnia even had of him was his  name, as a bastard she wasnt allowed her mothers. She pondered  sometimes why she even had these thoughts, understood what she did,  When she could barely put her feet together and walk. The small girl  looked down to the already mottled black legs and wondered when she  would learn to walk, It certainly would make her mother less angry.

Her mothers voice came to her like nails on a chalkboard as she heard  her approach, quickly the small girl curled into a ball in the darkest  corner and feigned sleeping, with luck she would just go away.