My own dad won't listen to me and says I shouldn't be so angry. Gods he's so blind! My mom doesn't want him and he tells me that I don't understand!
Fine. He says I can't live anyone else's life for them and can't protect anyone from themselves. Forget it then. Forget this stupid family. If my dad wants to stay here and get hurt then he can, but I won't! I'm leaving! I'm old enough to take care of myself, so I will.
Things won't ever be the same no matter what, so why should I keep waiting for them to change? If they want to be stupid and blind, so what!
I don't know where I will go - I'll probably have to find work or something to get a place to stay. Oh well. Anywhere is better than here.
Collision
Sanria came back from the castle exhausted and grateful to see her own house. She had spend the day in meditations coupled with advising sessions with Enmach. She threw off her robe and stepped into her waterfall shower. Through magic the water diverted here was the perfect temperature. It ran down her face, neck, and body - easing hear pain and clearing her mind. Once finished, she wrapped herself in a fresh robe and headed to her bedroom.
Colin was there, waiting for her. Somehow, though they were "apart" they weren't "apart." Colin had slowly worked his way from the guest room back into Sanria's room - and she was so accustomed to seeing him there that the thought of forcing him out no longer crossed her mind. She told him she'd be staying until he was healed anyway, and Enmach had suggested not rushing that, so, to see him there wasn't troubling, but the look on his face was.
"Leandra is really, really upset," he began haltingly.
"About?"
"Us... everything... she wanted to move out. Me and her."
"I see."
"Do you think she got that from me?" he asked, avoiding her gaze.
"Got what from you?"
"Being so angry..."
"No. She's never truly seen you angry. Only one of our children has."
"And he hasn't been the same with me since," Colin replied quietly.
"Nothing has been the same since."
"Yeah... I think maybe you should talk to her."
"Yes. I don't know what good it will do, but alright."
The soothing affects of her shower gone, Sanria sighed and got up, padding down the stairs to Leandra's room. She expected a fire storm. With Leandra, lately, Sanria could never know. The girl was so full of angst and irritation with her... she knocked. No answer. She knocked again. Nothing. With dread creeping in, she opened the door to find an empty room and what appeared to be an open diary on the bed.
Sanria crossed the room and picked it up and as she read, her blood went cold.
Colin was there, waiting for her. Somehow, though they were "apart" they weren't "apart." Colin had slowly worked his way from the guest room back into Sanria's room - and she was so accustomed to seeing him there that the thought of forcing him out no longer crossed her mind. She told him she'd be staying until he was healed anyway, and Enmach had suggested not rushing that, so, to see him there wasn't troubling, but the look on his face was.
"Leandra is really, really upset," he began haltingly.
"About?"
"Us... everything... she wanted to move out. Me and her."
"I see."
"Do you think she got that from me?" he asked, avoiding her gaze.
"Got what from you?"
"Being so angry..."
"No. She's never truly seen you angry. Only one of our children has."
"And he hasn't been the same with me since," Colin replied quietly.
"Nothing has been the same since."
"Yeah... I think maybe you should talk to her."
"Yes. I don't know what good it will do, but alright."
The soothing affects of her shower gone, Sanria sighed and got up, padding down the stairs to Leandra's room. She expected a fire storm. With Leandra, lately, Sanria could never know. The girl was so full of angst and irritation with her... she knocked. No answer. She knocked again. Nothing. With dread creeping in, she opened the door to find an empty room and what appeared to be an open diary on the bed.
Sanria crossed the room and picked it up and as she read, her blood went cold.
Diary: 2nd of Hammer
I think my mom is stupid. There, I said it. So what. No one is gonna know because no one reads my diary. Even Orn and Reggie don't know I have one. She makes me want to scream.
I hate how she makes my dad upset - she doesn't think I know that she was messing around with that idiot Thasmudyan. I hate him too. He's always hanging around our house, except when he isn't hanging around our house and he's gone away. Then when he's gone my mom gets some stupid sad look in her eyes even though my dad is right there in front of her. I don't care how much he saved Orn's life.
I wish my dad would just tell her to get lost, we don't need her anyway. And Orn, too. He acts like he knows everything and it's just dumb. He runs around with his stupid bear and acts like my mom does.
My mom is going to have a baby by my dad while she's messing around with Thasmudyan. Yeah, it's my fault, I took her tea and hid it cause I know my dad can't keep his hands off of her but it didn't work like I thought it would. They still aren't back together and now we have to deal with some stupid baby in the house and I STILL don't have what I want.
Maybe me and my dad could move out. I'd take care of him and he could find someone else that wouldn't be such a... a... dipshit like my mom. Not that I want another mom. That's the last thing I need.
God. I. Hate. Her. Why can't she just be normal like other moms? Alright. I don't **hate** her, but she makes me so mad I want to just... I don't know. Now she leaves to do some "clan" thing and Orn is up her butt like she's the best thing. Yeah. Me and my dad should just move out. I think that would be the best. Then we could train together and we'd be fine.
I hate how she makes my dad upset - she doesn't think I know that she was messing around with that idiot Thasmudyan. I hate him too. He's always hanging around our house, except when he isn't hanging around our house and he's gone away. Then when he's gone my mom gets some stupid sad look in her eyes even though my dad is right there in front of her. I don't care how much he saved Orn's life.
I wish my dad would just tell her to get lost, we don't need her anyway. And Orn, too. He acts like he knows everything and it's just dumb. He runs around with his stupid bear and acts like my mom does.
My mom is going to have a baby by my dad while she's messing around with Thasmudyan. Yeah, it's my fault, I took her tea and hid it cause I know my dad can't keep his hands off of her but it didn't work like I thought it would. They still aren't back together and now we have to deal with some stupid baby in the house and I STILL don't have what I want.
Maybe me and my dad could move out. I'd take care of him and he could find someone else that wouldn't be such a... a... dipshit like my mom. Not that I want another mom. That's the last thing I need.
God. I. Hate. Her. Why can't she just be normal like other moms? Alright. I don't **hate** her, but she makes me so mad I want to just... I don't know. Now she leaves to do some "clan" thing and Orn is up her butt like she's the best thing. Yeah. Me and my dad should just move out. I think that would be the best. Then we could train together and we'd be fine.
Considerations
Sanria sat at her desk, looking at the two pieces of paper in her hand. One was from her own son, the other, from the orc Kronk. Of course, the vote to allow her son, Orn, into the clan was one in which she could not partake. Of course she would allow him with her - but his relationship to her would make her biased.
Laying Orn's note aside, she picked up the one written by Jayden for Kronk. It was sweet, she thought, how Jayden took the time to speak with the Orc and to help him. She thought back on Kronk, realizing just how much he wanted to have understanding. "Don't we all," she murmured aloud. A balance to help others give understanding and harmony. Having an Orc in the halls would certainly help the Keepers of Balance show that they were, in fact, willing to open their doors to any who wished to help spread the ideas of harmony through balance.
Sanria took out her pen and began to write a missive to the clan:
"Dear Keepers," she wrote, and with a smile and thoughts to the future, she continued on.
Laying Orn's note aside, she picked up the one written by Jayden for Kronk. It was sweet, she thought, how Jayden took the time to speak with the Orc and to help him. She thought back on Kronk, realizing just how much he wanted to have understanding. "Don't we all," she murmured aloud. A balance to help others give understanding and harmony. Having an Orc in the halls would certainly help the Keepers of Balance show that they were, in fact, willing to open their doors to any who wished to help spread the ideas of harmony through balance.
Sanria took out her pen and began to write a missive to the clan:
"Dear Keepers," she wrote, and with a smile and thoughts to the future, she continued on.
Kronk and the Keepers
"I Jayden Young have written this for Kronk Orcish Destroyer for he cannot write and has trouble with some words of our language." 'Kronk hails from nowhere, he rests when he can and he wishes for a balance in this world so a creature like himself can live in harmony with all others. Kronk is very well adversed in fighting and can protect others with no hesitation, he is one with a blade and could lead others from the front. He grows more every day in understanding others and learning common tongue. Not the brightest is Kronk but he grows with intelligence more and more, if you can accept this Orc as one of our own he says he will be deeply indebt to the cause and well being of the clan and members first and foremost.'
Kronk then took the paper and marked a circle on the paper for his signature he grunted and thanked Jayden. Jayden then placed the parchment into an envelope and placed it on Sanria's table. "What we do now?" Kronk asked.
"We wait....." replied Jayden
Kronk then took the paper and marked a circle on the paper for his signature he grunted and thanked Jayden. Jayden then placed the parchment into an envelope and placed it on Sanria's table. "What we do now?" Kronk asked.
"We wait....." replied Jayden
The Orc
Jayden turned and left the meditation chamber, adjusting his robes. Kronk was standing in the courtyard as Jayden emerged from the castle, little did Jayden know there was an Orc clad in full armor waiting for him. Jayden breathed deeply when he saw the Orc, not ever encountering one face to face before he was not expecting to see what he had. Wasting no time he advanced slowly but without hesitation to the Orc with a smile on his face, "Good day sir, I was told you would like to speak with me, maybe I could offer you some assistance?" Kronk tilted his head and spoke deeply "Kronk got told J help Kronk. Kronk get chased by all persons. People scared of Kronk, Kronk have no home to go to!"
"You will never be harmed here Kronk, this is a place of balance no one gets harmed here, we live in peace with one another." Kronk looked at Jayden and hung his head as he spoke "Kronk trust J, Sannnnia tell Kronk J good human, so Kronk trust you." his massive finger pointed right at Jayden. Jayden smiled and and asked "So you came here not knowing what here was, but somehow you ended up here, this is divine, I do believe you were brought here for a reason Kronk." The Orc looked at Jayden and shrugged "Kronk do not know. Kronk ran....ended up here." he waved his giant hand around the area "Yes and I believe you were sent here for a reason Kronk, I do not know what reason, but I believe it is a just one....I would like you to stick around for awhile, but....we have to clear it with everyone else, if I would help you write a letter addressed to everyone here would you be willing to do it?" Kronk looked around and then back at Jayden, eye to eye he spoke soft but firm "Yes....Kronk want to be part of balance..." With that Jayden walked Kronk into a room with a desk, ink and paper, here he began working a translation for Kronk to send out to the island.
"You will never be harmed here Kronk, this is a place of balance no one gets harmed here, we live in peace with one another." Kronk looked at Jayden and hung his head as he spoke "Kronk trust J, Sannnnia tell Kronk J good human, so Kronk trust you." his massive finger pointed right at Jayden. Jayden smiled and and asked "So you came here not knowing what here was, but somehow you ended up here, this is divine, I do believe you were brought here for a reason Kronk." The Orc looked at Jayden and shrugged "Kronk do not know. Kronk ran....ended up here." he waved his giant hand around the area "Yes and I believe you were sent here for a reason Kronk, I do not know what reason, but I believe it is a just one....I would like you to stick around for awhile, but....we have to clear it with everyone else, if I would help you write a letter addressed to everyone here would you be willing to do it?" Kronk looked around and then back at Jayden, eye to eye he spoke soft but firm "Yes....Kronk want to be part of balance..." With that Jayden walked Kronk into a room with a desk, ink and paper, here he began working a translation for Kronk to send out to the island.
Time
Pride. It was the single word that kept coming back to Sanria, thudding through her mind in time with her beating heart. Her son, her boy, her Orn was becoming a man. Certainly, he still had missteps - his excitement bubbling over like a child, words hastily said without thought when he was nervous, but in the setting sun of the day, she had watched her little boy negotiate with an orc in a free, clear, unabashed way. He had negotiated with the skill of a man...
Sanria had finally taken him to the castle. Taken him to meet the Rilmani and any member of the clan that would meet with him. Her heart warmed at the awe on his face - at once so young and so grown. She had been alive for so many years, years beyond her natural time, but never felt so aged as when Orn, big and gangly, jogged to the edge of the floating island with the exuberance of a lab- orador puppy. "Mirin and Reggie should see this!" Her heart tightened. Al- ready the sphere of his life was moving away from her shadow, gaining a light of its own. Though Emalia and Tarran had grown up, this was the first time she got to see it without guilt, but bent with the weight of loss.
They had entered the castle and met with Jayden and Sanria felt sorrow flitter like a bird behind the cage of her bones. Orn seemed to absorb the tenderness Jayden showed like a sponge. A fatherliness that Colin had obliterated when he had killed Arlenia. Jayden had sensed the sorrow from both of them, and Sanria knew, deep down, she had to get Colin better. She had to try to help Orn look at his own father the way he had looked at Jayden.
Sanria had taken Orn to her office when the yell interrupted their discussion, "Who in there!!!!! Let Kronk in!!!!!!!" Then, leading her son, Sanria stepped out of the castle and face to face with a hulking orc. Fear ripped through her at the sight of the sword and the armor, and her son, her boy, her Orn had stepped in front of -her-. Somehow, time had passed. Her mind swung like a pendulum - boy, man, boy, man. Then she watched with awe as Orn laid down his staff and somehow befriended the orc named Kronk. He had negotiated with the skill of a man.
Sanria had finally taken him to the castle. Taken him to meet the Rilmani and any member of the clan that would meet with him. Her heart warmed at the awe on his face - at once so young and so grown. She had been alive for so many years, years beyond her natural time, but never felt so aged as when Orn, big and gangly, jogged to the edge of the floating island with the exuberance of a lab- orador puppy. "Mirin and Reggie should see this!" Her heart tightened. Al- ready the sphere of his life was moving away from her shadow, gaining a light of its own. Though Emalia and Tarran had grown up, this was the first time she got to see it without guilt, but bent with the weight of loss.
They had entered the castle and met with Jayden and Sanria felt sorrow flitter like a bird behind the cage of her bones. Orn seemed to absorb the tenderness Jayden showed like a sponge. A fatherliness that Colin had obliterated when he had killed Arlenia. Jayden had sensed the sorrow from both of them, and Sanria knew, deep down, she had to get Colin better. She had to try to help Orn look at his own father the way he had looked at Jayden.
Sanria had taken Orn to her office when the yell interrupted their discussion, "Who in there!!!!! Let Kronk in!!!!!!!" Then, leading her son, Sanria stepped out of the castle and face to face with a hulking orc. Fear ripped through her at the sight of the sword and the armor, and her son, her boy, her Orn had stepped in front of -her-. Somehow, time had passed. Her mind swung like a pendulum - boy, man, boy, man. Then she watched with awe as Orn laid down his staff and somehow befriended the orc named Kronk. He had negotiated with the skill of a man.
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