Deeper Confusion

Sanria had faithfully stayed clear of any intimate contact with Gilean for a week.  He  had healed her fully, consequently, she  felt normal, but there was something amiss with the growing concern she felt coming from Gilean.  He had even asked her more than once if she was ready to begin  trying for another child.  She politely  put off answering, but felt more than a little  pressured.  More to the point, she had felt a bit uneasy  at how Gilean  had come up with any  number of reasons for keeping  her from  spending any time with Colin.  Even during the day, when she might go with  Colin on a  picnic, or something equally alone for the two of them.  Gilean found a way to ensure that his plans came first.

The morning dawned and before Gilean left to bring them breakfast, she found herself  with child... again.  She knew of Gilean's lineage, she knew that he was  also a follower of Lathander, and  that those things paired meant he was interested in all things birth, renewal... children. She knew  he had healed  her, but  things shouldn't have happened that fast... and  when she asked, he assured her that sometimes things just happened that way.  Being very fertile after the  birth of a child was common.  Still... he  knew  she was pregnant  right away, as though he had looked for it, and when he found it, he breathed a sigh of relief.

Suddenly, he  was open to her  going to spend time with Colin.  Sanria put the thoughts out of her mind. No... he wouldn't have done something like that  on purpose.  Colin, when he found out, was not convinced... at all.  She  wouldn't let him think the thoughts that she held in the back of her mind.  Gilean wouldn't have duped her. That wasn't the way he did things.  He wasn't like that.

She went out of the cavern and took a walk.  She meandered back to the cottage and stood staring at the door.  So many thoughts raced through her  mind.  So much  had happened  here, Gilean's old home.  She ran a hand through  her hair and  stared at the ground for a moment.  Gilean wouldn't have done that... it was impossible.