Personal Hell, Public Chaos

She had been married for less than twenty-four hours and already it seemed everyone that  she didn't want to know, knew.  She sat with Matinus on the edge  of his bed, tucking him in.  She had ensured the boy  had a bath and  his hair was combed, and he  looked at her with his lilac-colored eyes and gave a drawn out yawn.  "I'm glad you're  here," he said simply.  It was a small act of gratitude in her day that made her feel emotional.  Chaos was too easy a word to describe what Sanria had walked into.

She'd gotten into a shouting match with Thasmudyan, though she'd anticipated his anger in a way.  Left without his powers, fresh from saving Lyvinnia from Maya, he had admitted he felt betrayed and angry.  She could only  say she felt fear.  Thasmudyan had left her before, disappeared on her before, even slept with Maya while he was supposed to be with her.  Yes, she  loved Gilean, but the speed with  which she'd acted on their  marriage was  predicated by the fear of being with Thasmudyan.  After all those years of  wanting nothing  more, she couldn't handle the idea of being back together  with the one who had held her heart for so long.

She gave him some of Nioma's clothes to take back for Lyvinnia and confronted the  second irate person - Leandra.  Her  daughter was utterly furious, and accused Sanria of not only ruining her life, but Colin's as well.  The rancor that poured from  Leandra's mouth  shocked Sanria and made her feel  small.  The ultimate insult was when Leandra insisted that, no matter what Sanria felt, she had an obligation to  be with Colin.  It was so final, so snappish, Sanria was stunned  into silence.  "You don't need to worry, I'm leaving this place.  The farther  away I can get  so I'm not reminded that I'm *your* daughter, the better."

Matinus had salvaged the night. She had made at least one person outside of Gilean happy.  She stood up and blew him a kiss goodnight.  When he sleepily returned it, Sanria could barely keep herself from crying.

Mrs. Gilean Eosos!

Sanria slid  from the bed, leaving Gilean's side, her husband's side.  She had gone against all advice from her advisor, and though the idea made her nervous, married Gilean.  She was now living in the cottage she had bought for Emalia long ago, had given to Claire, who had given it to Gilean.  She walked down the hallway to Matinus' room and looked in on the boy. His arms and legs  were sprawled akimbo, and she  took a moment to  move him into a  better sleeping position, tucking him in before going downstairs. 

A mere few hours previous, she was Sanria Stone. Now, she was Sanria Eosos. The name felt strange on her tongue.  She felt even more strange given the day before Mirin  had become a Mrs. Stone.  "Sanria Eosos," she whispered, and the condensation from her breath fogged the window.  Her fear had driven her here.  Not that she wasn't happy. She was just finding it a little  hard to breathe.

They were married beneath the sliver of a waxing moon, beneath the glow of a  million stars, right there in  the Druid's Grove.  Her third  marriage, Gilean's second.  The Elder  Druid seemed pleased with her choice, and had some foreknowledge that caused him to smile when he pronounced to the assembled trees and owls that they were wed.  Mr. and Mrs. Gilean Eosos. When had such a thing happened and could it possibly have been any faster?

"Sanria Eosos," she exhaled again.  She had anticipated any name save that one.  The force of the reality broadsided her completely.  A new beginning with an old friend.  The marriage was quiet, private, and she had no plans on  telling anyone anytime soon.  She climbed  the stairs and Sanria Eosos slid into bed with her husband.

Meditation

Sunshine streamed in through skylights. Ror was sitting at the edge of a brook amidst leafy green plants. Cross-legged and with his eyes closed, the elf was meditating.

A bar. Phil's. Conversational tatters.

"...I am not the only one apparently..."

- "...No... no, you are not...."

- "...a file on me, probably from the TriPower..."

"... back from life?"

- "...It cuts me off...I have no memories....Something keeps sending me back...."

The bracelet. So peculiar.

- "...awareness... must persist after death."

The image of Thasmudyan flickered in and out of existence, his mouth moving, but what was he saying?

- "Ever since I can remember.... hazy..."


The image flickered again.

- "...a daughter of mine is in danger..."

Sanria's voice, "Thasmudyan doesn't want you raising his daughter."

"Rrrrrorrrrr-rrr."

The voice changed, and had an edge to it, an edge that wanted to kill.

"Thasmudyan's other lover...Concieved Nioma the day Lyvinnia was concieved."

A tavern. Ror saw himself sipping from tea.

"Lloth still awaits you after death?"

Two voices.

- "... A lot to do with it. Almost everything...I betrayed her... Before this guise..."

Market Square. Ror was talking to Rahvin and Maezura.

"And there you have it, Master Surion. In a nutshell, we seek to prolong death as long as possible..."

The world twisted away again.

- "...To learn the lifestram I presume. My daughter.... Able to tap right in."

Thasmudyan.

- "It's ...complicated, yes."

"I'll ask no more."

- "Thanks for that."


The angry yelling.

"...better stay the HELL AWAY from LYVINNIA!'

It was sinister.

"...Closer than anyone...To perminant death...Real death, everlasting death..."

Ror's eyes opened. Meditation was over. Placing his hand in support on the grass in front of him, he swore under his own breath,

"Shit."

Findings

What seems like hours later though only minutes, through the mud and rain, he reaches the top of the sloped hill. What next catches his gaze is the burnt husk of a home, the surrounding vegetation encroaching upon it. Crawling with what speed he can muster he reaches the remains of a house, pausing momentarily as another wave of deja vu passes over him, he continues into the burnt remains seeking any bit of shelter he can find.

Searching briefly he finds some boards and begins propping them, with some effort, next to a less crumbled wall. Crawling under his makeshift shelter, escaping the rain for a brief respite, he curls up into a ball trying to stay warm. Listening to the rhythmic sound of rain fall he falls into a fitful sleep.

Waking to the sound of a hooting owl and no sound of rain, he inches out of his shelter shivering. Bracing against the wall as best he can he tries to stand again, the pain is still there, holding onto the wall grimacing he shifts his weight slightly and decides that he bear the pain and walk a little. Keeping one hand on the support of the wall he limps around the burnt house, searching as he goes, stopping when he notices a water hand pump. Thinking to himself, "Well at least I can finally wash my wounds." he lets go of the wall and limps to the pump.

After several failed attempts, determination pays off, he is able to get some water to flow from the pump. He sits next to the pump and starts to undo a bandage to his legs, inspecting the blood soaked bandage he sighs, beginning to wash his legs. With each pump of water on his wounds brings fresh agony, biting into rolled cloth, he finishes and washes the strips of cloth while letting his legs dry.

After rebandaging his legs he stands holding himself up at the water pump looking at the burnt building, closing his eyes, thinking why this place seems familiar.

The Elephant in the Cafe

She had done everything- called off her engagement, kept away from Gilean, checked in  on Colin only when he was already half asleep, and stayed away from  Thasmudyan completely.  Still, Sanria sat in front of  Enmach with a pensive stare at the parchment on her desk, writing mindlessly as she spoke.
"I didn't bring anything up other than his letter, that's all."
"Sanria - don't you believe there is more to discuss?"
"No, Enmach.  And neither did he. Ror was quite comfortable to keep things business and I won't look the part of the weepy woman sharing her feelings."

Sanria heard the scowl- the huff of breath, the push back into the leather chair.  "I still believe you should have told him."
"Why?" Sanria asked, laying the quill down. She looked at Enmach, her face calm and emotionless.  "What good would that do?" Enmach  grumbled and shook her head. "You humans are foolish and stubborn. You want want want- friendship, love, companionship- and when things don't go your way, you pretend none of it matters and that you have armor wrapped around the heart in your chest.  It's idiocy."
"I'm sorry we disappoint you," Sanria said frankly.
"I will not be baited," Enmach answered cooly.

"Then I'll  finish this letter to the other leaders and let them meet with Ror to discuss further his ideas for the school and theater in Westbridge. As far as my personal ties to Ror, we have severed those and they no longer matter."
"You truly believe he felt nothing and you felt nothing?"
"He ate his soup and again started asking after someone from my past."
"Who?"
"Kaliadra."
"I see."
"So, no.  I don't think he felt anything.  As to myself, I've already told you  I'm not going  to spread my  personal feelings around with one who is uninterested."
"I'm interested."

Sanria looked up, narrowing her eyes at Enmach, who sat with a demure grin. "I agree with him in regards to education and the arts." Sanria looked back  to her  parchment and started writing again.  She kept writing even though  a flash of bright light indicated she was alone once again.  Only when she finished did  she turn her  chair to face the window, staring out over the floating island, seeing it without seeing it.

Deja Vu

There is another crack and spark of bright light, causing the man to start and jerk upright, well as much as he can, before wincing in pain. He feels wetness on his face, and then he hears it, rain. Calming slightly he pulls his leg off the roots and swivels to rest his back on the tree and begins to examine the bandages. Thinking to himself, "No time to rebandage my legs, Ive got to find shelter." as the downfall of rain increases.

Looking around intently searching for some form of shelter he doesnt see any, however he starts to feel deja vu, again thinking to himself "Have I been here before? Why does this place look familiar?" Trying to pull himself to his feet, only to fall back down again groaning in pain, he looks skyward into the fall of rain. Looking back at his surroundings wondering why of all places he could have appeared this feels familiar.

Noticing a small animal trail he begins to crawl towards it, rain spattering his face as he drags himself towards it. Gasping for breath as he reaches the path he pauses for a minute, looking toward the sky again, "This place is familiar to me, I must have been here before." he turns toward the east facing a gentle sloped hill.

Pulling himself along, all the while grimacing at the pain, he heads toward the top of the slope as if he were called there.

The Return

The wind is calmly blowing on this seemingly normal day, the wildlife in the holy grove happily play and frolic. A deer lifts its head and looks around as if it was startled by something. The rest of the deer in the immediate vicinity follow suit and shortly after bolt in every direction.

Suddenly there is a crackling and the spark of bright light, a man appears seemingly out of nowhere and lands on their feet, only to immediately collapse onto the ground. Gasping for breath momentarily disoriented, pain suddenly hits, acutely focusing his senses on the location of the injuries causing a scream to well within and release.

With pained words he shouts, "Help!" Looking around seeing only forest he grasps at his legs, blood soaking his hands and trowsers, he groans, "oh goddess it hurts." Thoughts rush through his head, forcing himself to concentrate, he rips off his cloak and starts tearing at the ragged strips making them longer. Bandaging his legs up the best he can, stemming the flow of blood, he mutters to himself, "I hope this can stop it for awhile, Ive no idea where I am."

He crawls to the nearest tree and lifts his legs up on some roots wincing as another flood of pain hits him causing him to pass out.